Slightly drunk and high off my tits, about to probably make a fool of myself, but who cares right? All of you are fucking dead anyway, just screaming into the cyber void at this point. It's kind of funny you know? I was chastised so many times for being dumb enough to go with that asshole's plans, which in retrospect was true, I was/am a dumbass, correctomundo bruv, give yourself a pat on the back you egotistical prick.
Oh wait.
you can't, none of you can, cuz you're all fucking dead! Nowhere to be found, probably buried 10 feet under in some shallow grave in the middle of bum-fuck-nowhere, yeah that's right, you're all dead AND I'M STILL FUCKING ALIVE
WHY
I don't fucking know
god knows I wish to be fucking dead
But I just can't seem to get there, I mean, I got what I wanted, Martha's dead, Alesa's death was avenged, that's it, time to [ack ur stuff and say farewell à la bullet-to-the-dome express. Yet here I am, in this park, half buzzed-half high, middle of the night, on my own.
Yeah snapped at Franky earlier to leave me alone, still feel kind of shitty about it, however in my defence, I was planning on killing myself and I didn't want him to stop me. But like I said, I've been on this bench for 8 hours now, my gun safely tucked away into my jacket, thought I'd just blow my brains out and be done with it BUT I FUCKING CAN'T
and i don't know why
My hand just can't seem to have enough strength to grip the gun and raise to my temple, which is fucking stupid, it makes no fucking sense, I shouldn't have this problem at all. I literally have nothing left to live for, all of my friends are fucking dead, all I have to look forward to is a lifetime of paranoia and near-death experiences, and rcentl I found out that I can't seem to get a decent amount of sleep no matter how much I try, because that kid's tear filled face FUCKING haunts me. He's always there, staring at me with those giant eyes of his, fuc kman I knew I was going to get fucked over, but I was hoping that it would end in me dying, not... fucking this.
And where in the fuck is the tall fuck!? I thought he got a slender boner for when one of his victims was alone in a forested area in the middle of the night, well here i am fucker, where the fuck are you!?
this is fucking stupid FUCK
