So, it's pretty much obvious at this point in time, that I was attacked by people sent from "The Higher Ups". I mean, it's obvious, I don't have any significant enemies, I may have pissed a lot of people off, but this wasn't a usual attack, this was a warning, this was to keep me on a leash. I mean, who else would know which Tattoo's to cut off from my arm that are very important to me? Question rises, why won't they just kill me? Because they need people like me, they need strategists, because they are sorely lacking in that regard all over the country. Now any smart person would just "get the message", they would stay quiet and do what they are told, right? Well, I guess I'm pretty stupid, because as I showed, I took my megaphone outside and started a scene.
The following statement, is exactly what I said out loud into my megaphone, to our entire neighborhood, in the middle of the night, on top of the roof of my house:
"I feel a lot better, in case any of you were wondering.
I was attacked by (-Name Redacted-)'s men, because of the thing's I've said. I didn't get in trouble, because I published a falsified post on my blog, which puts my loyalty into question. I didn't just get in trouble because I said that this organization is filled inside and outside with a parade of shameless ass kissers. I got in trouble basically because I have the balls to say things, that nobody else, in this organization has the balls to say.
It's funny to me how (Leaving their name out) can stay quiet after the death of their daughter because of a lousy infiltration plan. It's even more funnier to me that we are clearly being treated like garbage and all we do is just bend over and take it.
I can tell you now, I joined this organization, because I wanted to live longer and I can tell that the majority of you people are here because of the same reason. Yet, we're not getting that, what is supposed to be a precise organization is becoming a mess, people get disposed of left and right and WE let them do that. And they don't mind, because we are untouchable in regards to our numbers, no other organization can touch us, but that's the problem, isn't it? It's this illusion of invulnerability that makes them let their guard down and WE are the ones paying for that sense of invulnerability with our lives.
But why the fuck am I even trying, I know for a fact that everyone here is scared shitless of saying what is on their minds!"
I would have said more, but that's when Claude came back and forced me off of the roof.
Oh, beautiful, they actually blocked her name.
ReplyDeleteWell, at least it shows that they are reading, expecting a new attack very soon.
Claude's right, you are thick as shit for this, but not for the reasons he thinks.
ReplyDeleteYou do realise that the higher ups attitude towards you mirrors that of the entity at the top to them, right? They take it out on the guy below them. And do you realise that your job is genocide? Up to and including children? Your entire organisation is founded on human disposability. I said that, I'll keep saying it. You might say you're still alive, but so am I, and I will outlive you at this fucking rate.
Curiously, guess who the lower proxies take their downtrodden frustration on? Oh yeah, motherfucking RUNNERS and CIVILIANS.
That's not necassarily what gets to me, though. I don't buy that they redacted her name either.
And I actually can't believe you fucking named a grieving mother and told her what to do. You risked putting the higher ups eyes on her. You think she needs that right now??? You think she wants her name shouted from the motherfucking rooftops??
Also I know for a fact you lied in that speech, you know it too, and you know that I know. You're lying to your audience already. Claude knows it too.
I don't care whether you do this or not, but don't make the mistake of thinking that you are enlightened or ballsy living out some kind of macho bullshit revolution fantasy.
I'll give you a news flash.
DeleteYeah, big difference though is that Runners fight back to Proxies who take out their frustration on them. So why can't people that are of lower rank in this organization fight back, hm? That's the big difference right there.
Yeah, you will outlive me at this rate, since I keep getting sent off on group missions that are so much shit, I came close to eating a knife 3 times, why? Cause it wasn't planned, the group had their orders and when I try to question them, they kick my ass and force me to do it their way.
I don't really give a damn if you believe me, or not. In fact, I don't give a damn what that Mother needs right now, or not. Fact remains, she, just like everybody else here is willing to swallow that pill and ask for more.
I really have no idea what you're talking about.
And also, I don't give a damn about being macho, all I care about is surviving longer and it just so happens that the jerks up there are making it a bit harder with their idiotic ideas. For fucks sake, where the fuck were they when we nearly got slaughtered here by Wolves? "Ah fuck them, we can replace them later on"
I could just stop doing what they tell me? Nah, I'll get killed off. I can run away? Nah, I'll die at some point in time, 70/30, I don't like those odds, no thank you. So what is the only way to do this? Make the "Higher ups" think twice.
Some Runners fight, some don't. You have the same choices. We get penalised for fighting, so will you, but it's a choice.
DeleteStop complaining about how great your ideas are and how shit everyone else is, because I literally said nothing about that, because I don't give a rat's bollock.
You don't gave a damn what that mother needs, guess who else doesn't? The higher ups you're complaining about. You're asking for them to value your feelings and opinions. But you have to do the same for others.
Yes, you DO know what I'm talking about. You are being dishonest with the others. And my god, don't you just fuckin' know it?
For the past two days I've worked in a bar that sometimes gets servant customers. Even when they are shitface drunk, I would have trusted them to do this better than you. And like I said, it's not about you risking your life, it's about how you're going about it and being a fucking hypocrite and alienating your target audience along the way.
They keep swallowing that pill because you don't have a better alternative. Leave it to someone with brains and a sense of empathy.
It's funny to me how you're trying to show me off as a sort of leader of a rebellion, which doesn't exist. I don't know what you think I'm trying to do, but to start a rebellion is not one of those things.
DeleteI love how you call me a hypocrite, while at the same time, talking about me, like you know what I want and what I'm trying to do. I met a dozen of people like you, people that act like they know something about that person.
Save me the drama about calling me a hypocrite and take a look in the mirror.
Never said you were the leader of a rebellion, and I'm not trying to "show you off as" one. I like revolution, so I wouldn't say you were seriously part of one. But think what you like, I'm not giving a fuuuuuck. Yet one thing I understand for certain, is that you are trying to send a message, get something across. And you are doing it horribly.
DeleteHow can I be doing it horribly, when you don't even know what I'm trying to get across?
DeleteNow save me the lecture and focus on your own God Damn problems.
Well shit, cowboy; I assumed you were trying to get across the message you perhaps shrieked from the goddamn rooftops? Fucking forgive me.
DeleteYou should run for it. They'll kill you anyway, you can't fight back without dying, best chance is to cut and run.
ReplyDeleteYou ought to go up to the roof and jump off it, if you're so sought after. That'd make a really big statement.
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